Let me flow like the river does 2 wherever He leads...

it juz donged on me...
i actually don't know what's my passion is....


Sis Penny (My church's pastor's wife) was asking my sister what is her passion..
& she said, she has a passion 4 young people.... she wants to learn up all she can & reach out to young people.. =)


then she asked me... What's My Passion... Do You have burden 4 anything or anyone...
then i said.... NO!! all i know is i want to do something 4 God...


-- Now i Wonder--
so where am i heading to...?
i've seen many young people have such burning desire in them ...
another person i know of is CHI MEI FEN.. another person who has this FIRE to save as many souls as possible....


but to be honest... I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE DESIRE 2 REACH OUT!!!  : [
ALL I KNOW, IS WANT 2 DO SOMETHING 4 GOD!!!


Gosh....
need to find my purpose in life soon...
coz i'm not getting any younger... 


i keep on telling God let me move faster...
i want 2 be on the GO 4 Him when im still young where i can give alot of my strength
if im older, my strength is limited...
need to give my all 2 Him


i don't want to be of those who regret later in d future about Can't Do More 4 God
i want to do all i can 4 God now while i still can....


but do what!!
what is my call!!


a scripture that comes to my mind at the moment :

He directs the heart of the Kings like a water cores wherever He pleases... =)

Psalm 61

Was doing my devotion...

& i asked God this question...

Have i hurt God b4 2 the extend that i made Him cry..?

as i ask, tears began to flow down...

yea, i think... i had done alot of things would hv disappointed Him...

but that doesn't make Him to love me less...

His the only 1 in existence that will ever love me the way He does...

& now, i hv this thought...

2 be like DAVID... A Man After God's own heart...

tiz chapter touched me 2day... juz wanna share it with u guys... :)

Hear my cry, O God;

listen to my prayer.

From the ends of the earth i call to You,

I call as my heart grows faint;

lead me to the rock that is higher

than I

For you have been me refuge,

a strong tower against the foe.

i long to dwell in Your tent forever

and take refuge in the shelter of Your wings

For you have heard my vows, O God;

You have given me the heritage of

those who fear You name

Increase the days of the king's life,

his years for many generations

may he be enthroned in God's presence forever;

appoint your love and faithfulness to protect him

then will i ever sing praise to Your name

and fulfill my vows day after day.

R U Trying 2 say something God....??

well, exams over....

was looking forward so much to go to a YOUTH PRAYER MEETING in FGA SELAYANG tiz saturday... but unfortunatly it was postponed to NEXT SATURDAY!!!

but it doesn't matter...

doesn't hv much impact on me... COZ IM ON BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe... ^_^ I've got 3 weeks with no special programmes... besides the thought to go & stay in my teacher's hse for a week....i've even asked her permission ady... hehe... but see how 1st,...

i'd wash all my new clothes... (yup hand-washed it all, hehe... gud gal mell... =b)

but now... my palm's skin is all peeling off ... hmm... i've never had tiz problem b4...

i mean i've washed my clothes using my hand so many times b4...

& i' have tiz big pimples on my face now.... that too never happened b4... not that big ones... =.=

WELL... SO R U TRYING TO TELL SOMETHING GOD!!!!

AM I MISSING SOMETHING!!!!

HMM.......................

EXAMS.......

4 Exams down.... 2 more to go....

YAY!!!!!!!!!!

THEN, A HOLIDAY FOR A WHOLE 3 WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_^

need to take God 4 helping me through the 4 papers that i sat b4....

dunno whether i can do better then the last semester result...

BUT THIS TIME, IM AIMING HIGH..............

COZ I SERVE A BIG GOD...............

im juz keeping my heads up high, & will juz continue to walk on water....

watever happen, whether GOOD or BAD....

ALL PRAISE & GLORY STILL BELONGS TO MY GOD................ :)

Gonna Strike 12 Midnight....

3 days hv gone by...

& wat hv i done...

hehe...

oni completed studying SOCIOLOGY!!!!!!!!

& juz started on management today.... =.=

am waiting to watch The Nanny.... So Lame Man.... Exams next week!!!

& i've still got the time to watch movies.... wat to do.... Hvn't Changed to the STUDYING MODE YET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'(

hehe...

had a LLOOOOOOOoooooooooooNNNNNNNnnnnnnnnGGGGGGgggggggggg Chat wif Alison Wok..........

haha

who cares bout exams.... take a break.... not that i hvn't had enough.... But its OK......!!!!!!! hehe

NOT IN THE MOOD 2 STUDY ANYWAYS.....

BUT AM GOING 2 STAY UP LATE TODAY!!!! Got 2 more Chapters to memorize....=.=

But Will Do So.... RIGHT AFTER I WATCH "THE NANNY",......... :D

HAKKUNA MATATA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_^

I know I know........... BAD MELLISSA BAD MELLISSA... :D

Friends........ =)

Remember i will always use the term "MY GROUP In UTAR," everytime i have somethings to share bout anything in college....

Yup!!! THERE THEY R!!!!!!!!!! ALL 8 OF US.........

(this picture i copy from Asako's Blog, or wat i like to call her, ASOKA... lol.... no picasa software to photo edit ma...

so no choice but to curi.... hehe)

sit anywhere oso sit together, sometimes wear clothes oso wear same colour together, go anywhere oso go together wan... yup... even to toilet....lol

our second semester had come to an end.. now everyone has 1 week gap to study hard & score well......... gonna miss all of them for a week... lol... but we will meet again, to face our worst nightmare(EXAMS) together soon...

but ITS COOL.... THE NEXT SEMESTER would not be like tiz semester where in some classes we're separated... tiz time we made sure, every1 signed up 4 the same class at the same time... lol...

so its another 3months together, b4 every1 really get separated.... haih

Today, Im Encouraged.... ^_^

i've received an offer today.... by my teacher... :)

know wat....

she invited me to join her 4 a mission trip...

all the way in JAKARTA.... From 22-27 September 2009... =)

NOT ONLY THAT...

but ... ITS EXPENSES FREE... as in she said, she'll pay for all my expenses, as long as i can get my passport....

HOW COOL IS THAT!!!!!!!!

can u imagine, i was called 4 a mission trip, and i need not to pay a single thing...

BUT UNFORTUNATELY....

THERE's 2 OBSTACLES....

1. my exams till 24th September...

2.my mum said NO!

so there it goes.... as much as i Love to go, But i can't...

so i guess, its not God's will 4 me to go yet....

but its ok.... I WAS ENCOURAGED!

KNOW Y!!!

coz im 18 years old now, & im getting offers to go 4 mission trip FOC....

& therfore, i can't wait & is excited to c how God's going to provide & make way 4 me to go 4 many more mission trip in the future... ;)

MY TIME 2GO 4 MISSION TRIPS WILL COME, & GOD WILL MAKE IT HAPPEN SUPERNATURALLY!!!!!

Letting Go...

Change to grow ...

Change To GROW ...

CHANGE TO GROW....

our church theme for the year 2009.........

but i've heard the saddest news.... (i knew it since tuesday actually n were thinking bout it the whole week)

things i've never aspected to change is going to change.....

i've always told God... bring the change in my life, but i've never thought that the changes will come like this...

BE CAREFULL OF WHAT U PRAY 4, God MIGHT JUZ ANSWER IT....!!!

in the beginning i was very angry of course.... I EXPLODED TO MY FAMILY & 2 A CLOSE FRIEND OF MINE.... ALIE...

BUT THAT IS IN THE PAST.... IM COOL WITH IT NOW...

I LISTEN TO A VERY WISE PERSON'S ADVICE.... (and hope to be like him one day....)

TO LEARN TO LET GO OF MY OWN PASTOR..... ITS TIME!! NO MATTER

WHAT THE REASON MAY SEEM....

OF COURSE IT'S GOING TO BE HARD....

im gonna miss the CHI'S FAMILY....

Mei fen was the one who 1st brought me to Saving Grace...

& when i 1st entered SG as a stranger, she was always so very friendly to me & my fly... i've always thought that we've going to face everything in SG 2gether...

BUT GOD's WAYS ARE ALWAYS BEYOND OUR THOUGHTS...

Wei Wen on the other hand, gosh... i've learnt to play BASS, GUITAR, & KEYBOARD b'coz of him.... listenning him play... i've fallen in love with music....

& Mei Yen.... everytime i see her... i feel happy & glad 4 her (i dunno y).... i mean, the desire she have in her in such a young age... the things that she can do...and her great and promising future she has ahead.... IT'S JUZ NICE TO SEE A GAL LIKE HER ONCE IN A WHILE....

BUT AS I WAS ASKING GOD Y..........

hmm....

the answer came.....

if you want to see a BIGGER GROWTH....

BIGGER CHANGE MUST HAPPEN....

RISE UP!

RISE UP!

RISE UP MELL!

AND I WILL BE HERE WITH YOU....

U WILL SEE HOW GOD IS GOING TO BRING A BIG CHANGE IN SAVING GRACE.....

FINE!!!!!!!!!

ok..........

no matter what.... God is still in control....

so even in this, LET GOD'S WILL B DONE!

i'll be still serving in SAVING GRACE....

SAVING GRACE is my CF now....

everything i've learnt there...

time to put into practise, here in SAVING GRACE....

now my only prayer to God is that:

I will be part of the changes that is ought to happen here in SG,

& that i will not just stand by the side line,

& watch... BUT BE INVOLVED...

WE've got 4 months from now, to prepare & equip ourselves...

so there it goes...

BUT EVEN THEN, GOD WILL STILL CARRY US ALL THROUGH THE SEASON....

Love...

juz finished watching an AWESOME show,

"A WALK TO REMEMBER" ^_^

Oh Gosh, How can i express it... ??

but all i can say is, ITS SO VERY TRUE...

LOVE is Patient,

LOVE is Kind,

Love does not Envy,

LOVE does not Boast,

LOVE is not Proud,

LOVE is not Rude,

LOVE is not Self-seeking,

LOVE is not easily-angered

LOVE keeps No Record Of Wrongs,

LOVE does Not Delight In Evil but Rejoices With the Truth,

LOVE always Protects,

LOVE always Trust,

LOVE always Hopes,

LOVE always Perseveres,

TRUE LOVE WILL NEVER FAIL!!!

**so that's my motto.. ^_^... hehe... i only have 1 heart and it's very frugile,

can't be letting anyone or everyone to come in & break it...

if im ever going to really fall in love, or go out on a date... it has to be with my TRUE LOVE... ^_^

I am PRICELESS....

A woman has strength that amazes men...

She can handle trouble & carry heavy burdens...

she holds happiness, love & opinions...

she smiles when she feels like screaming

she sings when she feels like crying

cries when she's happy & laughs when she's afraid

her love is unconditional!

There's only one thing wrong with her...

she sometimes forgets what she is worth...

SO TRUE RIGHT... ^^

(my mummy sms'ed tiz to me :D)

as i was writting tiz down, i remembered what my sisters learnt in their CF...

last time, the Guys were the HUNTERS, & the Girls were HUNTED...

nowdays, The Girls are the HUNTERS & the Guys R the one who's being HUNTED... =.=

Oh Gosh... Did all woman has forgotten HOW MUCH THEY WORTH...

Juz remember...

Womans can't be bought with anything...

WE ARE ALL PRICELESS :D