Dear Abba...

Dear Abba....


Ku Mau Cinta U Selamanya....
Don't Give Up on me...
I can be a very naughty girl sometimes...
but still a girl who loves you with all my Heart...


looking forward so much to the day where i can meet u face to face...
waiting for the day i'll be broken & be equipped to do the things you have prepared me 4...


i may not be like other people,
not as good as others are,
not as big as them...


but Here I Am...
Everything I am i give it to you....


Take me, Break me, Mould me, Use me...


Dad... hope... i ain't juz an empty vessel that makes the most noise...
saying would do this & that for you but ends up not doing...


Help me to Hold on to wat i say..
i ain't a Hypocrite or a Pagan...
i am Your Daughter... 

Time 2 Testify... =D

My 2nd Semester Examination Result was released yesterday...
my result, with a GPA of 3.66, CGPA of 3.69... =D 


2 be honest, i was a little disappointed at 1st, but then realized & came to my sense again... haha..
it's not bad!! 


God never failed to show me His Unfailing Favour & Mercy on me....
without Him, i wouldn't have gotten even that.... haha...
yup yup... Praise God indeed...


Praise God 4 answering my prayer... 
Praise God 4 giving me GREAT RESULTS... 
Praise God 4 being ever so faithful even when sometimes i fail... 


I serve a God who is Almighty, Faithful & Loving...
Let the Heaven's rejoice & the Earth be glad....=D

Word Of God Speak...

I'm finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny thing is it's okay
The last thing I need is to be heard
But to hear what You would say

Word of God speak
Would You pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
Your majesty
To be still and know
That You're in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness
Word of God speak

I'm finding myself in the midst of You
Beyond the music, beyond the noise
All that I need is to be with You
And in the quiet hear Your voice

Word of God speak
Would You pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
Your majesty
To be still and know
That You're in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness
Word of God speak

I'm finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny thing is it's okay...

Ashame of my reactions...

In my previous post, i said i was scared 2 death...
What could i have done
i am too small
i couldn't have overcome any1.
i was trembling with fear
my hands & legs were shivering...


Pondering over it, it shows how foolish i have reacted..
at that brief moment, 
-I have forgotten that i serve a GREAT & MIGHTY GOD...
- I have forgotten that the One Who is GREATER than the one who is in the world is LIVING INSIDE OF ME
-I have forgotten that God will NEVER LEAVE ME nor FORSAKE ME...
-I have forgotten that God is always there 2 RESCUE ME from whatever i was going through...


i was so foolish to let MY OWN FEAR TO OVERWHELM ME...


Haih... Wondering How God would have felt at that moment, when i have totally forgotten about HIM BEING BY MY SIDE!!!!!

There's an experience i won't 4get... i was scared to death... =.=

u'll think im crazy, but it actually did happened...
i ate my breakfast, came inside my bro's room & closed the door...
as soon as i did, 5 seconds later, a big BANG!!!!  I heard it!!!!!!
at MY door!!!!! the door i just closed!!!!!!!


i quickly LOCKED IT & STOOD behind it!!!
my legs & hand started to SHIVER....!!


my grandma was sleeping in the other room, & another was sitting in the living room...


worst still, then i heard FAST FOOTSTEPS.... It sounded like many was walking in my living room...
impossible, my grandma can walk that fast.......... =.=


can u imagine how scared i would have felt..!! only 3 of us were in the house...
usually we would not lock our gates... we live all the way on the 14th floor in our condo... who would come all the way up here we thought..


i climbed up my bed... sent an online instant message to ALFRED... He was the only one online
i picked up my handphone, wanting to call my mum... my hand was shivering i tell you... was never scared like this b4........


im a girl, a small girl, i can never overcome any1...what can i do....???? 


i sat on the bed, started praying... asking God to protect the 3 of us, sending His warrior angels to come & guard us...


my mum called the security guards downstairs from her office...
2 of them came up, n checked on us... i never left the room the entire time... my grandma went and opened the door...


i looked down through the opening below the door... no footsteps, so then i left the room 2 check... GOSH!!!!!!!!! WHAT AN EXPERIENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!


ALL THIS HAS 2 HAPPEN WHEN I FINALLY BEGAN 2 FAST AGAIN.....
my dad asks if im OKEY!!!! =.=


it was not like i was making all this up!!!!!!


I SERIOUSLY HEARD A BIG BANG AT MY DOOR!!! IM NOT KIDDING!!!!
ITS IMPOSSIBLE A WIND CAN HIT A DOOR LIKE THAT!!!! 
It wasn't my grandma, She was scolding me 4 scaring her while she was sleeping....
THEN WHO WAS IT!!!!!


no, there's no ghost in my house, if that's what u guys are thinking....
but yes.....didn't expect all these to happen during the time of  MY FASTING!!!!!!!!!!! 

Let me flow like the river does 2 wherever He leads...

it juz donged on me...
i actually don't know what's my passion is....


Sis Penny (My church's pastor's wife) was asking my sister what is her passion..
& she said, she has a passion 4 young people.... she wants to learn up all she can & reach out to young people.. =)


then she asked me... What's My Passion... Do You have burden 4 anything or anyone...
then i said.... NO!! all i know is i want to do something 4 God...


-- Now i Wonder--
so where am i heading to...?
i've seen many young people have such burning desire in them ...
another person i know of is CHI MEI FEN.. another person who has this FIRE to save as many souls as possible....


but to be honest... I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE DESIRE 2 REACH OUT!!!  : [
ALL I KNOW, IS WANT 2 DO SOMETHING 4 GOD!!!


Gosh....
need to find my purpose in life soon...
coz i'm not getting any younger... 


i keep on telling God let me move faster...
i want 2 be on the GO 4 Him when im still young where i can give alot of my strength
if im older, my strength is limited...
need to give my all 2 Him


i don't want to be of those who regret later in d future about Can't Do More 4 God
i want to do all i can 4 God now while i still can....


but do what!!
what is my call!!


a scripture that comes to my mind at the moment :

He directs the heart of the Kings like a water cores wherever He pleases... =)