Saturday, December 26, 2009

Boyfriends & Jesus...

i heard this over a sermon & i find it pretty cool..
He said, "women tend to have a long list of how they want their "Perfect Man" to be!
For example, Blond Hair, Blue Eyes, Muscular & stuff... with that list, if Jesus were on earth right now,
she can't Date Jesus!! & if she can't date Jesus, THAT'S BAD!!"


haha.... pondering over that, this thought came to my mind... "WOW!!! Having Jesus as my DATE!!! 
OH WOW!!! a man who understands me even before there is a need for me to tell him,
a man who still loves me for the better or for the worse,
a man who will never break my heart!!
a man who will never leave me nor forsake me...
a man who will always be there waiting for me to come back home!!"


i mean, i've seen and heard of relationships that people enter in and comes out getting hurt!!
i've seen marriages ending up in divorce simply because there is misunderstanding in their relationships!!
i've also observed that people tend to wear a mask when their around people whom they love!! they are not being honest or transparent even among their own partner!!


i aint saying relationships with guys or gals on earth is ALL BAD!!! 
i know that even God himself said that it is never Good for a man to be alone & so he created Woman!!


but what i can't seem to understand is that why do people are always in the rush to enter into a relationship fast, in and out and get themselves hurt!!
isn't it worth while to just WAIT!!!
I mean, how AWESOME it is to let the whole world know that u've dated no one else except "HIM (My Mr.Right)" 
then the relationship is a SPECIAL ONE!!! 
if i've dated so many guys, then what will make my date with Mr.Right Special?? its the same as the rest of the dates i've been having!!! isn't it..??


i dunno who came out with all the craps that if u don't date any1 so far, than ur weird & stuff... =.=
who says that ur weird just because you don't have a boyfriend or a girlfriend now..??
that is all a TOTAL LIE!!!


whether agree or not..
im Glad to be the one who goes AGAINST THE  TIDE on this matter!!
I don't want to be something out of the ORDINARY, but wants to be something out of the EXTRAORDINARY!!!


My life path is not governed by what other people do around me, 
but its govern by WWJD (What Would Jesus Do)!!! 


Have a nice day people!! =)

Friday, December 25, 2009

Assuredly Yours...




All that I am is in You
All that I seek is to follow You
I run to Your side when You call
There is the hope I am longing for

Just to be by your side
There is hope in my life
There is no greater freedom I’ve found

Take my life
And all that I have to give
Take my world
Just inhabit all of it
Take my dreams
Make me assuredly Yours

by: Paradise Live

Christmas....

well, CHRISTMAS isn't CHRISTMAS till it happen in ur heart..
hmm.... i dun have the christmas spirit this year......
macam tak ada feeling saja....


well, was in church.! & today was the last christmas together with Christabel Chi Mei Fen & the whole fly.....
haiz, after today.... i'll be going to church & the whole Chi family will simply won't be there...


7 of years being together, & now we had to go our separate ways!!! On Christmas Day!!! Wat a Gift.... :-/ 


Thursday, December 24, 2009

From UTAR to HELP to UM

haha...........
when i told God, that im going to HELP..
it was like a voice telling me that i needed to be in UM (University Malaya)


I told God then, if He wants me to be there, MAKE A WAY!!!
coz im already in Foundation Programme.... 


im still amazed the way God works....
i mean whether i'll get accepted in UM is another matter...
but i mean... HE MADE A WAY THAT NOW FOUNDATION STUDENTS TOO CAN ENTER INTO PUBLIC UNIVERSITY...


here is how it began...
my church member's cousin was the one who came to my house & said that i can apply for that uni
coz she was a former student there... & now she's helping others to get in coz she has a few contacts that can help me....


then she called Mr. Maha (Head Of National Higher Education Bureau MIC) in front of me..
he asked for my CGPA & when she said wat it was, He juz said, "YUP! ask her to apply!!!"
then that sister said, because my CGPA is high, i shouldn't have any problem in getting in....


haha....
COOL RIGHT!!!!
i mean, i didn't even know that foundation student can enter into Public Uni's in the 1st place...
on top of that, that sister said, if u apply & u didn't get it, Contact me!!! i can Make Sure u get!!!! hahaha
Oh Boy!!!! Im Still Overwhelmed!!!! 


and for the past few weeks i was thinking bout how on earth am i going to finish paying the PTPTN LOAN if i enter into HELP coz the fees is so high.... & continue on going into BCM... I'll be a debtor even b4 i graduate.... i was complaining to God..... haha...


& wah lah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


HE DID IT AGAIN!!!!


If im accepted in UM, then almost quarter of the fees will be paid by the government & furthermore, the fees is not that high too... 


i need to apply in February, & their intake is in July, so till then, i think i'll work 1st.... better to work then to just stay at home doing nothing.... 


i'll only know if i got accepted in UM in june,  so till then...
i'll just save the money for BCM..... haha.........

the bible says,

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares theLORD,
plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
plans to give you hope and a future

i do have a plan of my own & still do....
but i am ready to flow where ever God lead me to
coz He's ways are beyond my thoughts...
and He always does what's BEST 4 ME... 


Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Today was a great day...


well.... i organized a  children christmas party today...
was cutting some stuffs & also practicing my guitar till 3 am in the morning...


but it was all worth it...


40 children came!! 
8 Youths & 8 Adults came to assist...


this year, the children was very WILD!!! that i can tell... haha... 
they were so super HYPER that it was so difficult to get them to STOP TALKING!!
I literally had to threaten them with gifts to make them keep quiet...



but yea... THANK GOD!!! When i've realized that it was difficult to control them, I PRAY 2 GOD 4 WISDOM!!!
thats when the idea came... haha... and OH WELL!!! IT WORKED!!! Praise God.. =D

Friday, December 11, 2009

Facing the Giant...


watched the movie "Facing the Giant" today in church
some of the things that really caught my attention :
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God said 365 times do not fear in different occasions..
if God had said that many times, u know how important it is... 
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The secret of life is letting go
the secret of love is letting it show
in all that i do
in all that i say
right here in this moment


the power of prayer is a humble cry
the power of change is in giving my life
and weighing it down, down at your feet 
right here in this moment
take my heart
take my soul
and all that is within me
i lift up to You & say
I'm your & Yours alone COMPLETELY


the struggle of life is the search for truth
the journey of faith is following You
every step of the Day, The Joy & The Pain
right here in this moment
take it all..
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only God can open the doors that are shut
& only God can shut the door that is opened
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all that needs to be done is DO MY BEST
& LEAVE THE REST TO GOD... =D

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

Psalm 91..

one of my favorite psalm besides Psalm 23 ^^
after my previous post, i've decided to go & read the bible... 
was feeling very guilty that i will only run back to God when i needed Him 4something...
& now that exam's near... haiz...
anyways...
was reading it & some of the verses that caught my attention...
1."He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High;
will rest in the shadow of the almighty "

3."SURELY he will save you from the fowler's snare
& from the deadly pestilence."
4."He will cover you with His feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
His faithfulness will be Your shield & rampart."
**thinking back i'de realized how foolish i've been..
i had this fear a few weeks back.. That something bad was going to happen to me. bad as in i was going to get kidnapped & raped..!
& that God was going to allow it to happen to draw me back to him.. I even had tiz strange dream   
SILLY RIGHT!!!! I KNOW!!!!!!(Didn't even realized it till i had a talk with Ps.Andy. )
reading that psalm reminded me of God's promise to me... That he will SURELY NOT LET NO HARM BEFALL ME... =)
besides  that..
14."BECAUSE HE LOVES ME says the Lord, I will rescue him;
i will protect him, for he acknowledges my name."
15."He will call upon me, & i will answer Him;
I will be with Him in trouble,
i will deliver him & honor him.
**that two verses reminded me that no matter how i have been b4,
Still call upon the name of the Lord, & He will come & help me...
i'd tried.. haha.. it worked!!! wat took me 3-5 hours to finish 1 chapter now only took 1 hour... =D
hehe.... Thank God 4 Helping me through...
reminds me Of this saying.. 


"When we are not Faithful to God, God is still Faithful;
& When we are Faithful to God, God will be More than Faithful..."


Let us not boast in anything but boast in Jesus Christ...
I AM SO PROUD TO CALL HIM MY FATHER... ^_^

Sunday, December 06, 2009

Dear God..

Don't give me too much that i may forget u..
Don't give me too little that i may despise u
Please give me juz enough that i will always depend on u..


Think i am straying away... Draw me back to u...


Don't walk in front of me that i may be left behind...
don't walk behind me that i may walk ahead of u leaving u behind...
but dear pa, walk beside me that i may walk through the journey of life together with u...


Don't want to be a hypocrite or a pagan...
juz want to be ur child that pleases u...  
Don't want to live my life pleasing men
juz want to live my life pleasing u...


Reading the bible everyday ain't easy for me...
can u do something about it...
what will make me to read it without failing...


i am aware that im drawing away from u further & further everyday as i don't read it...
Y am i so insensitive to the Holy Spirit's voice...
think i don't have the "Fear of God" in my life...

Do something Daddy...
Do something Mellissa...
MAKE A MOVE!!!



Wednesday, December 02, 2009

Things on my mind lately...

sigh... things on my mind lately...



  • Children church (Christmas party!! )
  • HELP (new place again... will i make new frenz?? need to apply for the next intake.. will i make it on time)
  • Final Exam (Psychology!! many things to memorize)
  • Youth Meetings
  • Jian Loong (they leaying to australia, won't be around for christmas.. Won't be fun... *sigh*)
  • Alfred (songleading wit him soon... all CHRISTMAS SONGS!!! =.= y can't it be normal songs...)
  • Mei Fen & fly(They gonna leave soon... Last month together wit her)
  • Santa Clause (who's going to be the santa clause for children party..)
  • Blogs.. (4 blogs to manage... what to write or update)
  • Guitar (i can't play any Christmas songs!!!)
  • My Spiritual Life.. (still struggling to read bible EVERYDAY)
** Well that's just me trying to express it all out so won't EXPLODE again...


i am 18 years old going on 19 next month...
alot of things in my mind!! alot of things in my hand...
alot of things i need to take in charge...
alot of things i need to get it done...


i am one person, can't do it all on my own...
but know God is still in charge over what i need to do...
i still know that in whatever i do,
I AINT GOING TO LET IT STEAL MY JOY AWAY IN DOING IT 4 GOD!!!


whateva we do, we need to do it 4 God... & we'll see how mightily God works..... =D
many things are waiting for me Ahead in my Life... Can't wait to see all the wonders & miracles that is about to happen...