AM I A HYPOCRITE???

I dunno..
i feel like wanna tell God SORRY a THOUSAND TIMES !!!

for HURTING HIM
for DISSAPOINTING HIM
for FAILING TO SAY THAT I LOVE HIM
for NOT SHINING THE LIGHT THE WAY I SHOULD 4 HIM
for FAILING TO SPEND TIME WITH HIM
for JUZ GOING TO GOD WHEN I NEED HIM

IM SOooooo SORRY DADDY!!!
the days are never the same without you!!

im asking God, 'Y NOT JUZ TAKE ME WITH U NOW'
I WANT TO BE WITH HIM.. play with him..
forget about everything & juz enjoy being in HIS PRESENCE!!

BUT THEN, again i feel that GOD IS DISSAPOINTED WITH THAT QUESTION!!
there is so much to do in these world!
and i CAN'T LEAVE THIS WORLD TILL I COMPLETE "MY MISSION"

I can't go b4 God and say 'Lord i give up! i can't complete the mission u have created me 4'

I MUZ COMPLETE MY MISSION!!!

i don't want to be a hypocrite!!!

i don't read my bible everyday!
i don't do my devotion everyday!
i don't think i pray everyday!

IM TRYING VERY HARD TO DO IT!!
and it aint easy!!

people think i am very gooood ...
i am not!
i am trying to b one..
still trying!!

and i love my God b'coz i love Him
i am not much of a good testimony to Him,
but im trying to be...
i want to be one..
juz that, to get what i want it takes some effort in my part, which i am lacking...

Dear daddy, there is no one else 4 me...
NONE BUT JESUS!!!

I DON'T WANT ANYONE ELSE BUT U!!
don't let ANYONE or ANYTHING to take UR place in my HEART!!
IT BELONGS TO U!!!

Y LORD.. Y??

now juz stop crying, it would B alrite
juz take my hand, & hold me tight..

i wil protect u, from all around u..

i will be here, don't u cry...

Well, ur rite.. this song is from TARZAN!!!

but this song came to my mind when my Pastor was sharing on friday in

Youth Meeting...

it felt very much like God SANG THIS SONG to me that day...

asking me to stop crying, IT WOULD BE ALRITE

to TAKE HIS HAND, & Hold Him Tight.

& That He Would PROTECT ME from all around me

He will be with me, asking me NOT TO CRY!!!

I JUZ LOVE MY GOD, i tell u...

no matter what i did!
what i say!

or how much i have HURT HIM...

HIS LOVE 4 ME NEVER CHANGE!!

i think there wouldn't have been any day in my life where i wouldn't have DISSAPOINT HIM! When i said that I WOULD DO THIS 4 HIM but in the end, turns out NOT DOING IT...

that friday i asked...

Y God?? Y..

Y DO U LOVE CREATURES WHO ALWAYS FAIL U ALL THE TIME???

THE REPLY CAME...

SIMPLY BECAUSE..

I LoVe U!!!

I heard God Today... =)

haha..

FINALLY!!!

i mean, i was like telling God y Miss Boey can hear God so clearly while i'm having such a difficult time in hearing HIM...

Well it was today on the 3rd of FEBRUARY 2009!

when i was coming from UTAR as usual..

my dad picked me up & i was on the motorbike

usually i would wear a long jacket and make sure that i am covered fully so i can protect myself from the SUN!!!

well i know i'm not fair but i CAN get more darker too u know when being exposed to the sun...

well, today when i started the journey,

it was quite SHADY!!

so i was thanking God 4 a gud wheather & 4 His favour 4 the whole day... =)

then as i was on the bike, i was deep in thought of the assignments that i need to complete

when suddenly without me realizing,

i began to fall asleep...

then at a moment, i felt my body sliding down & almost gonna fall...

AT THAT MOMENT...

I heard HIM CLEARLY...

I HEARD GOD VERY VERY CLEARLY...

He said,

MELLISSA WAKE UP...

i opened my eyes n i saw that i was on the road...

i was complaining to God that i was sleepy,

then i HEARD HIM AGAIN!!!

He said,

HANG ON TO THE BACK OF THE MOTORBIKE,

IF NOT U'LL FALL...

i told Him,

BuT gOd... It's sUNNY...

then at that moment,

THE REPLY CAME...

LOOK MELLISSA, I HAVE HID THE SUN 4U...

it's no longer SUNNY!!!

HANG ON...

then i saw that the SKY WAS SUPER CLOUDY!!!

& the sun was no where to be found...

with a smile on my face

i told God, God I FINALLY HEARD U CLEARY

AND I COULD RECONIZE UR VOICE... =)