Candles - Light in times of darkness

I'm fascinated with candles recently... 
Hence, for the past few days, i had the habit to switch off all lights and light up a small candle & watch it burn in the dark!

As I watch the candle burn every night, 
I cherished the moment because it gave me peace watching it burn silently in the dark 

In the process, I learnt a few things:-
"All candles were created for is to bring light into the darkness...
and as it shines the light, it is also slowing melting itself away and eventually dies off"

Then.. i realized..
At times, the way I've lived my life has also been like such!

In everything i do, 
In trying to make others happy, I've hurt myself
In trying to make a difference in other people's life, I've lost myself
In trying to shed a little light for others, i'm burn out and am left with nothing...

But than i thought to myself...
It's okay to self-sacrifice oneself for a good cause..
We are called to be the light of the world anyways...
That will mean, just like these little candles, self-sacrificing IS NECESSARY 

I may not necessarily be there all the time ..
but at least for a little while, i was and will be there to bring a little light into the darkness... 

 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven. - Matthew 5:14-16

Therefore,  I will continue shinning, even if it hurts!

Yours Truly,  
~Mellissa Lina Mosses~

Tears

Tears are usually a sign of frustration & disappointment, but NOT defeat!

As I was pondering back, 

I'd realized I'm not as strong in controlling my emotions as i could once upon a time.
But can i be blamed? Life has not been kind to me for the past few years.
But thank God for the silver linings & the skies are seeming to be clearing up ^_^

Anyways, tough circumstances over the years and months are the reason for me to become who I am today.
Nowadays, it is so easy for me to tear, cry & what not much more than i could do before.

I once had the attitude of keeping all my emotions intact & not show it to people around me to an extend that i had kept all my misery to myself. 
That did not make me feel good neither did it made me any better.
All i became was bitter.

I guess i realize now that it is okay to cry.
It is okay to be seen vulnerable once in awhile.
Because, at the end of the day, crying releases me off my frustration but that does not mean I had given up. 
It just means that I've vented out and I am up and ready for round#2!

Remember: just because one cries, that does not make them emotionally weak. But rather it can be a tool that helps you to become stronger and face much more of the challenging task that awaits!
Crying or venting CAN make you stronger, NOT weaker! 

I am not ashamed to announce that I am a crier and I like warm hugs for pleasure & comfort :P

Hug Lover, 

~Mellissa Lina Mosses~

I'm accepted to serve UNHCR

So its been long since I've blogged,
but i guess this news is worth having written down and be pondered back in the future...

When I had to go through the interview with the UN,
I soooo badly wanted to get in to an extend that I was literally begging God to help me get through...
but it was later after the interview did i realized that to date, I've never failed an interview before. .

It has definatly been through God's favour & mercy that i was able to be who i am & do what I do today. .

So yes,  I'll begin working with the UNHCR 15 DAYS from now ^_^

It has always been my passion to make a difference in people's life and i am glad that my territory had extended now & i will be able to help a very different group soon...

I have no1 to thank but to give all glory & praise to Him alone, coz only He deserves it...

Many keep warning me that the job is going to get very very stressful & that i will have to be psychologically strong to work in this field.. but as much as i am NOT psychologically/physically strong, I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO BEGIN AS I KNOW FOR SURE THAT GOD WILL BE BY MY SIDE, SO WHO CAN BE AGAINST IT?

I won't deny that I am not afraid, but even in my fear, i will take courage coz the Lord my God is by my side <3 span="">

For the Lord is my Shepherd
…2He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters.3He restores my soul; He guides me in the paths of righteousness For His name's sake. 4Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.